Another story, a new chapter

Our New Year started with a few fireworks seen in a distance, the “+ Project” and a missing dog (who strangely suddenly appeared out of nowhere, as if she was not missing at all….and who by the way, weirdly went missing exactly one year ago as well….)

We decided against any New Year’s Resolutions for 2012 (I mean, really, who keeps to them anyway?), instead we will “create” projects as we go along, our first two for 2012 being : “The + Project” and the “Breaking bad habits Project”

The + Project :

We will try to see and do at least one positive (+) thing every day, the more the better, but at least one will do.

Breaking bad habits Project :

Which ever bad habit it may be, we will attempt in breaking it.  Both Guilm and I decided on the 3^rd that we have indulged long enough in our bad habit, and decided to put a stop to it, but in doing so, Mark decided that if we can do it, so can he, so all and all, the three of us have been bad habit-less for a total of 9 days now, and counting.  Apparently it takes 21 days to consider a bad habit broken, we are almost halfway…we can do this!

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I can’t get myself to finish marking Hanco’s school requirements…. it is just to damm difficult and heartbreaking!  But I have to pull myself together, as school starts soon.  We will be there, right beside him, holding his hand, as he walks through the gates for the first time.  We will be there to comfort when all gets a bit to overwhelming; we will be there to witness the excitement. 

But then the time will come where I will have to let go of his hand, give him a hug, a kiss and an “I love you lots”.  

I will have to turn around, walk away and allow him to explore this wonderful new phase in his life, and I will do it with a smile on my face (let me rather re-phrase : A smile IN my heart and tears ON my face).  Yes it is sad to see them grow up so fast, but on the other side, it is absolutely amazing to see them grow, to reach the milestones, to learn, explore, play, to be a child,  but also grow into this perfect littlest human being.

I will love him (them) till end of time and then even some more, for they are my littlest, my Biekies, my everything, my reason for being, my reason for existing.